What do we really want? February, 11 2011
Why do lighters exist? Why do we act so crazy during certain times of our life? Why do we eat food that has been completely shredded by a machine and smashed back together? The answer to all these questions as well as many more can be simply put, “because something motivated us to do that, obtain it, crave it.” Man was cold, and so he captured fire and protected it with all of his will. The woman wanted to have a baby so she wouldn’t lose the man she loved, so she stabbed a pregnant lady and tried to steal her baby (its happened google it!). I was hungry and I didn’t have very much money, so I went to the same fast food taco joint and ordered the same 5 tacos, always no lettuce though.
Motivation is the most powerful tool one can possess. It separates leaders from followers as well as great leaders from mediocre. It propels success in every definition of the word. Inventors envision a better, possibly easier tomorrow. So my question to you, is how come motivation has such a powerful influence over our lives? Now, there are a wide variety of answers that could be spilling out your mouths but one that I would like to emphasize is the desire of wanting. We want an easier life, we want food quick and now, we want to be warm, and we want to be happy. It is just this that creates peace, and on the other end destroys countless lives in war.
My challenge to you is to answer this question, what do you want? For some it could be easy, but then again if it’s that easy then chances are good that the want is something materialistic or shallow. I want a boyfriend that cares, I want to get into medical school, I want to see my family, or I want to be done with school. I don’t mean to step on any toes by saying the above list is of shallow intent but before you jump out of your seat or stop reading try stimulating yourself. By this, I mean your brain, allow yourself to have a ‘mindgasm’ where you release everything and you truly start to critically think about something. Once this is achieved our wants may become much more profound and yet at the same time, more primitive in action.
Happiness, security, a healthy family, acceptance, longevity of life, the competency to forgive… some of these may start to pop into your mind. They are all simple ideas that people seek everyday. However these ideas, though so simple, start to deform and become so perverted that it becomes hard to figure out the root of the desire. When this happens, an invisible wall is constructed, creating ignorance between our subconscious and us. Stop here and consider what I just said, ignorance is being built between you and your own wants. The concept is simple, there is a lot of actions that we do that we are completely oblivious to, such as eating with our mouths open, smirking inappropriately, body language, the list can go on and on. The concern is when it moves from a physical habit to a mental habit.
I want to help people, I always have and I always will; however my want to help people does not come from the mere act of helping out, but from a much more powerful selfish feeling. My want is to be accepted, and I feel accepted when I help people. When you genuinely help someone out they give you a smile that is so true and honest that it makes the hairs on your neck stand as goosebumps form on your arms. It makes you smile in return and in that moment in time you are accepted as respectful member to society. It is here, as well as countless more, that motivation can change lives. Motivation can change the world by rewriting the future so that the past doesn’t continue to be so horrible.
So what do you want? In my quest for happiness, one of my many other root-wants, I search women. It is here that I find a different form of happiness, one that calms my restless brain and tears down the idea of being alone. Along my path, and its been quite the rollercoaster, I have found a very interesting reoccurrence. For the first time, I even warned the individual not to fall into what has become such an unintentional trap. Through my observations I have come to one solid consensus, and that is simply that people, not just girls, do not know what they truly want. For my supporting evidence I am going to use girls, please do not get the idea that I am referring to only girls or even emphasizing something towards girls, it simply has become the bulk of my studies.
The said reoccurrence of which I am referring to is one of obligation. Girls say what they want, and claim that it is not out there but in reality it becomes more of a fact of avoidance. I am still without a doubt ignorant to the entire thought process behind any of this. I simply just observe the emotional process from the beginning to the end. It starts out the same every time with a girl who smiles and as I said earlier, I feel the motivation to recreate the smile as often as possible. If she’s smiling than I’m smiling, and if we are both smiling than obviously something is right. I’m a little different, but definitely not abnormal. I have a future planned out and a realistic dream that happens to not be self-centered. This combination is golden to pick up girls. The reason why I’m writing this, is clearly because my intent was completely the opposite. I tell of my ambitions, not to get into their pants but to allow them to see a side of me that would otherwise be invisible.
I am 100% in support of profound conversation because it honestly builds a connection that can withstand a lot of destruction. However, that topic is a completely separate piece of writing and if you wish to discuss about that more, feel free to let me know.
I love humans; I desire that deeper connection that is only achieved by opening up and revealing your raw, honest thoughts. The same thoughts, which define who we are. Back to the topic, I allow them to see my future. In doing so, it paints a beautiful picture of security, happiness and serenity. I know this, because it’s my dream I spend loads of time thinking about it because it feels less stressful than my life now. So as I start to get to know the girl I start to become fearful that she is interested in the wrong guy. “You have everything figured out, you are set, blah blah blah.” But the truth couldn’t be farther away. I don’t have everything figured out, there are still hundreds of hurdles between where I am at now and where I WANT to be. So I even began to give warning, that my life is a complete mess, my thought processes are entangled with frayed out nerve endings that resemble a city after a tornado just hit. And before I can convince them otherwise, it happens.
Now towards the end of the process it becomes easy to figure out if you know what signs to look for. Body language is key to predicting any situation and unfortunately I’ve become pretty decent at this, sometimes desired, art form. I say unfortunately because of the same reason why people respond with “no” when asked if they could find out their exact day of death, would they want to know. It sucks to be able to see and envision the entire conversation before it plays out which sounds something like, “I know you are the person I should be with, but for some reason I don’t want to, I can’t, I’m sorry.” The above conclusion to the relationship, regardless of length, is the one that infuriates me the most yet intrigues me just as much. The feeling of anger is quite obvious as I’ve described in the paragraph above but the response intrigues me because of the thought of desire. “I should like you, but I can’t/won’t/don’t.” This same statement has allowed me to build up a lot of resentment towards girls that say, “Guys in the movies don’t really exist.” Perhaps they don’t exist because they have gotten the same response I have. The only reason why I don’t change is because like I said, I don’t say the things I say to pick up girls, I’m not that pathetic, or at least sometimes I like to believe so.
I know of a few more examples of people rejecting something that is easily seen as beneficial to an outside party. But that isn’t the point of me writing. The entire motive for me to write this is based off of the idea of hidden motivation. What then, do girls really want, do guys really want? Could it be simply enough that I just randomly stumble across girls with similar interests and wants? I doubt it; there are far too many discrepancies both in geographic location as well as ethnically for me to hold much belief in that probability. I know the motivation exists, I just can’t find the root because nobody has allowed me enough insight but some day or perhaps never will I figure out why people say/do the things they do.
I’m duly sorry if you developed hopes of finding out more about motivation than what I can offer but if that’s what you are feeling at this point than I am sorry to inform that the entire point was clearly missed by your perception. It was not the root of the motivation I was seeking, no, for that is way too complex and is grossly inappropriate to label even two people with the same motives. Rather, I was hoping to give you further insight to why people do things that seem strange, the answer is of course motivation, the drive that makes them want whatever it is that they want. We may never find out exactly what it is but it can be seen clearly in our lives. You can’t be upset with it, and you may not understand it, but one thing that must be done is the acceptance of it.
Humans are very complex animals that behave completely out of sync with any biologist’s statistical behavior equations. Its because we have more than a biological desire, we see that there is more to life than mere physiological needs of eating and sleeping. We give up sleep to do well on an exam; we give up our need for eating food when we are sad (others may increase their intake of food). And before I let you go, I suppose its only fair to say what my most powerful motivator/desire/want is… and that’s the fear of failure. It completely shapes my life and attitude everyday, the fear that if I don’t take classes seriously I may fail the MCAT, or during experience, if I forget something, even as minor as a common symptom, it could kill someone. “What you don’t know, won’t kill you.” However, in my career aspirations, it might not kill me, but it COULD kill someone else. I’m not going to allow that to happen quite so easily.